10yrs

I remember the first time I saw you.
I fell in love with you.
Your dad said so.

No you weren't the only one I fell in love with.
It was with everyone.

I don't really know why and how exactly we came about on each other's life,
All I know is that from those crazy first days, apparently 10 years have gone by.

I still remember the day we've taken this photo.
We were in Newton Center, sitting around the grass waiting for someone.
Maybe it was one of your parents, or one of your siblings.

You and I used to spend so much time together,
And you've always been this bright gem.

I love how funny you are, how goofy you get and how I tag along those crazy manneurism of yours.

You've changed so much, and I never knew how much I didn't know.
It hurts, because often when I felt weak,
I thought I needed to be strong because of you.

For all the right reasons though.
And now, I sit here crying because, though I've been 'fighting' against these bad allergies,
I know things will never be like that Spring.

Maybe that taken back in 2010.
What do I know about calendars?
Not much.

We've had several other moments ever since then,
And here we are, still mingling around the same cluster,
As if there should have been a reason for our proximity.

Except, by the laws of this world,
I have no way of ever living the life I wish we both could have had.
I will love you forever,
No matter what you've done.

No matter how awful and mean, and gross.
I love you for every reason I listed,
and through every flaw you are so well capable of hiding from the entire world.

I don't blame you for not stepping up over what had happened.
I don't blame anybody that seemed to have been manipulated into this
Shitty game.

Outside the peer pressure, I have a feeling that some part of you dreams with the same world as I do.
Maybe some day, we'll meet again, and maybe then we'll be able to create the lives we all deserve.

<3

Annie Banannie