gawd

A while back someone asked me if I feared God.

I guess we are often saying those things that gets us hang up to someone else that can help us better understand the meaning of those sayings.

This feel as if its another of those stories from the patients I have in my therapy office.

This last dude, it was as if he was a foster kid, that was telling me about his upbringing.
Someone that had chosen to care for him, someone who eventually had no means in teaching him the right or wrong behind his actions.

My father taught me not to fear God, but to fear men. /jere
Reason being because though it is one of the smartest creatures in the planet,
Given the conditions that many had and have to live,

We're capable of doing unimaginable things.
Truth.
And yet, there's so much about men that I have been promised but never seen.

Somehow, the odds of the universe bring me to all sorts of spaces,
From the fanciest castles (read Boston Public Library) to the parks where many gather to trade the latest escape (read K-2, etc).

But what are we escaping from?
The last couple of years may initially have felt as some of the worse to me.
Somehow I managed to lose years in my life that had brought much suffering to my life.

Turned into an appreciation for all that God had given me: myself.

Even in the darkest places, he didn't fail me, he provided me with a family, original or not, that was capable of assisting me through the path I've taken.

He gave me a beautiful mind, that never stopped for the broken but fought to fix it until it found somewhat the original pieces of what it could have been had he allowed me to be aware and conscious of the suffering I had to live through.

Somehow, amongst the many people that had been somehow picked to suffer,
I didn't stay stuck in the labels or in the words that should have shamed me.

I fought to understand that I wanted to know.

Far away from Boston, I couldn't really measure the size of the work I did in this life.
Even while here, I still had not been able to comprehend, that the abilities he has given me,
Were far more than I could have ever asked for.

There's still much knowledge that I want to write and talk about.
Questions of science, science and progress, for they speak as loud as my heart.